I have had my locs for four years. I haven't twisted them in 5mos. Everyday I look at them and I want to yank them out of my head. I scan countless natural hair sites and envy the sisters who have done the big chop. I want to chop and be done with it. Well whats stopping me. Change..changing anything is hard. I'm a bit nervous a lot vain. 'What will I look like', 'what if I hate it', 'what if I regret it'. So basically I still sit here with a head full of locs. I think I will wait until after the bar exam and say adios then. I'm such an indecisive person, I have a hard time deciding what movie to see and then I always feel I made the wrong choice. So I am trying to learn that choices are just choices you accept what you choose and move on. And hair is just hair.
Honey, I can so relate. I too am indecisive to that same extent, feeling like I'd made the wrong choice afterward. And I too had locs and loved them to the end and then suddenly wanted to cut my hair and have it completely gone. Looking at the natural hair sites in envy, going over it and over it in my head. You know what I had to do. I just had to do. I made a commitment cut and then booked my appointment. And I felt great afterward. Three years of locs gone. It is just hair and it'll grow back. And you can always go back to loc'ing.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with all of it.
Peace Queen,
K